Time is flying this year it sure feels like it! In the
beginning of the year I was not sure what would be in store for me in
2012. I heard so much and read so much about
2012 that I felt wow what will happen to me? Will I be a part of a huge
transformation? I just knew I wanted to evolve in some big way I just was not
sure how. Months passed and after taking my Reiki II certification class I
asked myself what has been the big events or changes in my life? I knew taking
these Reiki classes was a part of it but I felt there was something else I
needed to focus on. I know when we say
big events we think of external things right? Like getting a new job or
buying a home. But I realized that this year some big events for me were deeper
than that. One of them was making peace with my past. Now in my past there is a
little bit of everything a lot of pain, hurt, disappointment, sadness, anger,
resentment, trauma, negativity and darkness. I guess I thought I cried enough
to think it was gone. But it wasn't. This year my past came back in such a way
that I thought wow really? Why? Then I understood that I was changing my life.
Not just in one area but in many areas. I am engaged. I will someday have a
family of my own. I am becoming a healer. I want more balance in my life. I
want to be different from those who I feel carry on a vicious cycle.
I feel the angels are preparing all of us for the next
chapters of our lives. And they are smart enough and clear enough to see that
before we can run freely in a blissful future we have to make peace with our
past. I think making peace with your past means you no longer allow it to hurt
you or control you. The negativity it has created in your life and in your
habits you can now set them free and start over. You will no longer belong to
its hurt and pain. I also think making peace with my past means I will learn to
be more peaceful within myself I will no longer hold on to anger and fears that
kept me tied to my past. I can be who I am with a lot of love, light and faith.
Not with fears, anger and hurt that keep me imprisoned and have me acting out
in such a negative way. So this is the transformative event in my life for this
year. I am sure that I had chances to do so before but this year it’s different
this year this event is life altering meaning my life has to change especially
if I want to reflect that which I most desire and want which is love, laughter,
peace and harmony. I no longer want to feed my insecurities and emotions from
the past. I really want that to end. Especially if my father gave me some fears
that stuck to my being and I continue to reflect some of those onto others whom
are innocent from such past. No one deserves this not even me.
I hope I continue to learn all that I can about making peace
with my past and with others even with myself. No one is perfect life is not
perfect so simply accept all the amazing lessons you have learned and the
amazing gifts you were given. As humans we can’t help but to always look back
and fall victim to our past but it does not always have to be that way. If we
are to truly live in truth and honesty we have to uncover everything and face
the root of our problems. Facing and dealing with them is the only way we can finally
make peace with ourselves. And if we do decide to embark on such journey we are
not alone. The angels are always there to help and guide us. Not just angels
from heaven but earth angels too. Some of those Earth angels have been my good
friends such as David and Isabel. There are always others willing to help you
heal and become the beautiful being you were born to be. Have you tried making
peace with your past? It might not be easy but it’s worth it. Trust me everyone
will benefit from your courage and faith.
Love and Light!
Cristina Balderas
Medium and Spiritual Counselor
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