Making peace with your past

Time is flying this year it sure feels like it! In the beginning of the year I was not sure what would be in store for me in 2012.  I heard so much and read so much about 2012 that I felt wow what will happen to me? Will I be a part of a huge transformation? I just knew I wanted to evolve in some big way I just was not sure how. Months passed and after taking my Reiki II certification class I asked myself what has been the big events or changes in my life? I knew taking these Reiki classes was a part of it but I felt there was something else I needed to focus on.  I know when we say big events we think of external things right? Like getting a new job or buying a home. But I realized that this year some big events for me were deeper than that. One of them was making peace with my past. Now in my past there is a little bit of everything a lot of pain, hurt, disappointment, sadness, anger, resentment, trauma, negativity and darkness. I guess I thought I cried enough to think it was gone. But it wasn't. This year my past came back in such a way that I thought wow really? Why? Then I understood that I was changing my life. Not just in one area but in many areas. I am engaged. I will someday have a family of my own. I am becoming a healer. I want more balance in my life. I want to be different from those who I feel carry on a vicious cycle.

I feel the angels are preparing all of us for the next chapters of our lives. And they are smart enough and clear enough to see that before we can run freely in a blissful future we have to make peace with our past. I think making peace with your past means you no longer allow it to hurt you or control you. The negativity it has created in your life and in your habits you can now set them free and start over. You will no longer belong to its hurt and pain. I also think making peace with my past means I will learn to be more peaceful within myself I will no longer hold on to anger and fears that kept me tied to my past. I can be who I am with a lot of love, light and faith. Not with fears, anger and hurt that keep me imprisoned and have me acting out in such a negative way. So this is the transformative event in my life for this year. I am sure that I had chances to do so before but this year it’s different this year this event is life altering meaning my life has to change especially if I want to reflect that which I most desire and want which is love, laughter, peace and harmony. I no longer want to feed my insecurities and emotions from the past. I really want that to end. Especially if my father gave me some fears that stuck to my being and I continue to reflect some of those onto others whom are innocent from such past. No one deserves this not even me.

I hope I continue to learn all that I can about making peace with my past and with others even with myself. No one is perfect life is not perfect so simply accept all the amazing lessons you have learned and the amazing gifts you were given. As humans we can’t help but to always look back and fall victim to our past but it does not always have to be that way. If we are to truly live in truth and honesty we have to uncover everything and face the root of our problems. Facing and dealing with them is the only way we can finally make peace with ourselves. And if we do decide to embark on such journey we are not alone. The angels are always there to help and guide us. Not just angels from heaven but earth angels too. Some of those Earth angels have been my good friends such as David and Isabel. There are always others willing to help you heal and become the beautiful being you were born to be. Have you tried making peace with your past? It might not be easy but it’s worth it. Trust me everyone will benefit from your courage and faith.

Love and Light!

Cristina Balderas 

Medium and Spiritual Counselor 

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What I learned about my fear of failure

One of the biggest things holding me back from achieving my goal of becoming an Accountant was my fear of failure. I had registered for a class that I had previously failed before and I was super nervous about the whole situation. This was the only class holding me back from making my dream a reality and I didn’t know how I would pass it, but I was determined to give it my best shot.  I was optimistic and I put my best foot forward, but out of nowhere while taking my exams I felt as though I was literally facing some demons. I was abused both mentally and physically as a child and after many years, I can honestly say that I thought I was over all of that. But I wasn’t over all of the mental abuse, during most of my exams, I would remember all those times I was told I was not smart enough repeating silently back to me like a broken record. We had three exams and a final exam in this class and it wasn’t until my third exam that I had started to feel more confident that I would succeed and pass this class. I had done my best so far and had not left any questions unanswered to the point that I can now teach this class if I wanted to. Even if I had not passed this class, I was determined to take it as many times as I needed to so that I can finally put a rest to conquering my fear of failure. When it came time to take our final exam, I was prepared to give it my all. I had trained myself well and I had finally faced all those mental demons and if I started to get any negative feelings creeping up on me I replied with my mantra for the day “I am a warrior and I will not let anyone or anything stand in my way today”.  To my surprise, I had already passed the biggest test of all, which was defeating this negative mental demon and receiving my passing grade was the proof that when you give your mind, body  and spirit all that it needs coupled with determination, perseverance and lots of positive self-talk “all is possible”.  

                

How I did it? I couldn’t have done it without the help of my many beautiful friends and teachers. First, I was very blessed to have an awesome teacher who went above and beyond to teach me that there are many methods to reach a solution. Secondly, I prayed a lot. I think God might be thinking geez “I heard you the first time”. Third, I created a train your brain yoga program for myself in which I practiced certain yoga poses the morning before my exam to calm my nerves and give me a killer mindset. It was a very powerful yoga practice. I also made sure I was eating the right foods to promote a healthy and faster brain function. 

                

In conclusion, this whole experience has taught me some great lessons. It has taught me that failure is a part of success and when you use failure as your teacher it brings you closer to your goal. I would say that a major part of success is in the mind and if you can conquer the mind’s negative self –talk, you are already a success. Everything else is just a matter of applying action to where you want to go with your goal. 

By: Cristina Tuazon

Yoga instructor/Practitioner 

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